Wanted mistake:Episode 5; any hope of acceptance?

EPISODE 5 Two months after clara leaving I was ill for a week and now life continues Ben and I had a few sexcapedes and outings, dad finally lost his job and was back home . I woke up to a headache on a Tuesday morning, my breasts were getting bigger, how much I hated my period, I called and told him seems my period came and he asked me to take care of myself Two days later there were no stains on my panties and I really felt sick. I told Ben and he asked I meet him up at his place not the super market. I got to his place and he passed me a product which had urine test strip on it. I asked what it was for and he said it was a pregnancy test strip. I slapped him and told him I was not pregnant he said the only way I will know is with a test, I reluctantly went to the bathroom after he told me what I was to do. I came back to the room with the strip on my hand and sat next to him, the five minutes felt like five years. There were two red lines on the strip. OMG a tear fell off my cheeks, Ben was quite for a while as I looked him in the face. BEN: who is responsible Bianca? (He barked) BIANCA: are you serious right now? BEN: just tell me who is responsible because I know I have been really careful BIANCA: you know I have never cheated on you, where is all these coming from Ben. You are the only msn I have known all my life. BEN: then you are not keeping this if it is really mine. BIANCA: are you asking me to kill a soul? BEN: common it’s not human yet, it’s just a blood cloth BIANCA: what if I die? BEN: if it is my child then it is not matured enough to kill you BIANCA: no! I am not aborting this baby, it is against my faith BEN: oh premarital sex is not against your fate right? Well I cannot marry you or take care of a child I did not budget for, its either you let me abort it or you find the father else where I was already crying and never expected to be pregnant or the reaction I got from BEN. I ran home and awaited my fate, ine thing I am sure of is I am not killing this baby. I stayed days, always in my room after my chores, I vomited behind the house to avoid suspicion from anyone. After a week I chatted Clara up and told her CLARA: o GOSH I am going to be an aunty BIANCA: can you please stop this is not funny CLARA: tell me you are joking girl BIANCA: I am serious, I don’t want to abort it and I can’t keep it either. I am confused Clara CLARA: I won’t advise you to abort it, so we are keeping it, what about Ben I guess he’s responsible right? BIANCA: I haven’t heard from him ever since we found out, he’s been avoiding me and not picking up my calls. CLARA: tell mom. She won’t be happy but I suggest you tell her she will know how to tell dad. I ended the chat and made up my mind to tell mom that night. It was 9pm and dad was glued to the network news and mom was in the room reading her bible. Jerry was already fast asleep. I knocked the master bedroom and mom’s voice came from the other side asking me to come in. I entered and stood there starring my mind was sure I should run out and back to my room. MOM: Bianca why are you there starring like a lost sheep BIANCA: sorry mom, can I talk to you? MOM: yes sure what is it daughter? BIANCA: I am sorry mom to let you down this way, I never meant it to happen ma (tears running down my cheeks) MOM: what is it Bianca what have you done? BIANCA: i…….i…….i…. MOM: you now stammer right? You what BIAN BIANCA: pregnant MOM: ehen? BIANCA:I am pregnant ma!!